So i did it. After 3 years of waiting, i finally played Riff...and from what it seemed, it was a success. The whole entire day on Friday just sucked ass cause our rehearsal got cancelled and i didn't really feel ready and i didn't know what exactly the fuck i was gonna do with my hair, since i wasn't gonna wear a riff wig. My hair's too long to do anything i wanted it to do, but whatever, that was the last thing anyone really cared about. It was really cool, when i got up and started doing 'window scene,' i got this huge roar from the crowd, and that just made me feel alot better about doing the rest of the show. I felt so comfortable doing it, and that was the best part. Even when i'm playing Brad, i don't really feel that comfortable...especially when floor show comes around!
I'm so glad all that stress of that show is finally gone. But that still doesn't really take away from the fact that i still need a fucking job. I really don't know where to look, cause i don't know what the fuck i wanna do. I mean, i wanna test video games, but i can't really find anywhere thats hiring. I just kinda have to wait for Vivendi to start hiring for the rush again...then get laid off and start all over again. I'm thinking of maybe going back to school...but where? and to study what? I don't know what the fuck i wanna do for the rest of my life...plus i HATE school...like just stepping into a classroom makes me sick and just, i don't know, gives me the creeps. School was just always such a bad experience. But i dunno, maybe like, ITT Tech or something...but then i just might as well fuckin go to like DeVry, or Brooks College or one of those other schools you see when you're watching Jenny Jones on UPN! Ugh. Fuck, whatever i do, i have to do something.